e.e. cummings

"i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)"
--e.e. cummings

When I broke off possibly the most important meaningful relationship I'd ever been in thus far, I had no i dead what to do. I knew it was coming, it was like a time bomb ticking. I could feel myself draw back. And it was nothing he did, he remained the same loving person. But in the time we'd been together, I had changed. I had grown. And somehow I needed to get out and find myself.

Things that make me smile:
Acquiring new plants
My Papa
Old books
India
Goose-bump touches
Fresh cut flowers (Sunflowers)
Phone calls from far away lands
Snail Mail

“a true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. but to live with a soul mate forever? nah. too painful. soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. a soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, and make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life.”

— Elizabeth Gilbert

SUMMER IS ALMOST HERE =)