I love you more than I should

They say you shouldn’t hold on and hurt yourself further. They say you shouldn’t kill yourself over and over again over someone who doesn’t care anymore. So why do we keep trying and trying? When is it ever going to be enough? When is all this trying going to ever end? Because sometimes no matter how much you try, no matter how much effort you put into it, enough is just never going to be enough. And all this hope you allowed to build up over time is going to crash down like a tidal wave, sweeping past all your defenses and you’re left feeling more hurt and disappointed than ever. I’m not saying don’t try. I’m saying sometimes we just have to know when to give in, give up because you can’t keep wasting your energy trying forever. Some things just aren’t meant to be, and so they never will be.